If you ask why I'm not interested in someone, I might say their nose is too big, or they don't know how to dress, or they're too thin or too fat or too plain. but the truth is, I only notice those things because of the real reason--that i'm just not feeling anything. but people don't want to hear that. they always want an explanation. so I have to come up with something concrete even though feelings aren't like that. if I did meet a guy and I felt happy with him for whatever reason, I wouldn't give a rat's ass what he wore or how tall he was or what he did for a living. but when i'm with someone and it just doesn't feel right, that's when I start noticing the bad haircut or Chicago accent or unibrow. and it's true that tomorrow I may go home with someone who you think is totally wrong for me. and the next day I might meet a perfectly nice guy who you think I should feel excited about, but I don't. but if I do go home with someone, it means for a change, something feels right. for a change, I'm feeling hopeful. I just want to feel happy when i'm with someone.
- Caren Lissner, Starting From Square Two